Friday, October 23, 2009

TUHAN...Saya Amat Bersyukur!

Tadi exam amali Pegawai Kebudayaan B41 selesai sekitar jam 2.30 petang. Saya jangka waktunya akan selesai lebih lambat, tapi mujur calon yang sepatutnya 14 orang cuma 6 orang sahaja yang hadir. Mungkin Tuhan mahu mudahkan lorong rezeki untuk saya.
Tadi pagi saya tidur jam 3 pagi, terima sms dari The Boyfriend jam 3.50 pagi (saya baca sms kamu jam 6.30pagi) mahu khabarkan yang dia sudah selamat sampai Taiping ~ rumah The Boyfriend di sana.

Debaran saya tak hilang sampailah dikenalkan dengan panel penemuduga. Sangat gigil+ ketar, sumpah! Sangat cuak, tapi macam biasa buat-buat cool, hehe. Sayakan Drama Teacher dan juga perancang pelaburan. Kalaulah masa ni anak murid atau client saya tengok, apa agaknya reaksi mereka?

Ujian pertama bermula, bahagian sastera. Saya kena buat satu puisi dalam masa 10 minit. Sekurang-kurangnya 20 perkataan mesti ditulis. Tajuknya ada 3 pilihan ~ sila pilih. Saya pilih Bersatu Teguh, Bercerai Roboh.

Ini yang sempat saya fikir dalam debaran yang masih bersatu dalam dada.

Telah dijalin sepakat
Di padu juga janji sejagat
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Harap nanti jangan sengketa melapah padu
Terus pimpin tangan berdepan musuh

Itu yang mampu saya kongsikan, yang lainnya tak mampu saya siarkan atas dasar kelupaan total apa yang saya tulis tadi. Selepas itu saya di beri masa 5 minit untuk mendeklamasikannya. Alhamdulillah, syukur saya panjatkan ~ semua lancar!

Seterusnya ke bahagian bakat lakon. Saya pilih watak KIAH ~ si kepochi (sangat lain dari watak saya yang sebenar – jadi saya pilih itu)
Itu juga selesai kira-kira jam 11pagi, kemudiannya rehat. Sempat saya cari semangat saya (abah dengan mak yang saya tahu sedang mendoakan saya tanpa kenal erti jemu)
Kemudian sambung pengucapan umum dan di akhiri dengan diskusi kumpulan. Bila selesai, saya amat lega! Ini baru peringkat pertama, ada lagi kedua dan ketiga.

Ini sudah akhir Oktober dan saya sudah mula cari-cari style rambut yang baru. Sudah bosan dengan short bob, long bob kemudian short bob semula. Sedang fikir-fikir mahu style yang lain. Sudah jemulah!Ada juga terfikir mahu buat seperti long chop macam victoria tapi kalau pendek sangat nampak ketara saya macam budak-budak. Biarkan panjang? saya rimas berambut panjang. Saya teringin mahu potong rambut tinggal 1/2 inci. Tapi kerja macam saya tidak memungkinkan perkara itu berlaku. Sebenarnya sudah 3 tahun saya jauhkan diri dari pewarna rambut dan saya tak mungkin akan highlight rambut saya.

saya suka yang ini, tapi hampir sama dengan style rambut saya sekarang. Cuma di'chop' kan sikit.


saya berkenan yang ini, layered+chop+highlight skit..macamane?


ini ok juga, layered+bob+highlight


INFO
Yang memohon untuk jawatan Pegawai Kebudayaan B41 adalah 16000 orang
Yang di'short list' adalah 436 (termasuk saya)
Tapi cuma 20 jawatan yang mahu di isi
Sudah hampir 5 tahun jawatan ini tidak pernah diiklankan


Thursday, October 22, 2009

TUHAN...Tolong Permudahkan Semuanya!

.:during Jom Makan rehearsal:.



Time : 1.11 am @ my Blackberry time (as I did +15 mins early so u guys pls -15
mins back ya ~ for real time)
Mode : Happy + Excited + Tired

Actually i was promise the boyfriend that i will sleep early tonight. He said make sure i home early after DUSTA rehearsals and had enough sleep as i have exam tomorrow. But i cant! Yeah...im so nervous right now, not blur..just a lot of thing running inside my head. My mind already told me that im supposed to sleep but this alter ego is always lead me when im in this kind of situation.

I'm browsing around to get any input regarding public speech as much as i can. the exam that im going to sit is SPA8 for Cultural Officer B41 position. i really want that job...give me hard i will put 200% effort for that responsibilty ~ trust me!

I have something to announce (take a deep breath)

Jom Makan Musical Show called to delay to 21 Dec 2009 ~ i sangat sedih ok! the show is supposed going to take part in Penang Event this 6 Nov 2009 but due to our PM Datuk Seri Najib so busy with his Visit China, the show called for delay. Last night we been practice from the beginning till finale, together with another 60 performers + Technical Crew and Penang Tourism Minister. We start the rehearsal from 4pm until 12am and i believe everybody in the production really put an effort for the rehearsal last night, but we so shocked when our director announce that the show called for delay! Ramai yang sangat kecewa but i think its better for us also, we can have more practice and sharpen our movement, acting, voice projection and last but not least our stamina. Im going to dance, sing and act at the same time. every single dialouge that im going to say is im gonna to sing it!



Kongsi Gelap Battlefield Game still in progress! try my best to make it as simple as i can and make the innercity kids love to play that game! fix here and there. (inventory Acheh Street and Armenian Street aku masih tak lengkap - nanti tak cukup aset utk kanak-kanak yang bakal bermain, Tolonggg!!! )



ini pic waktu di ambil darah - i stay at Hospital Pantai from Friday nite last week until sunday 5pm. ambil darah tak sakit (darah diambil setiap 30 mins dari jam 8am sampai 12pm kemudian selang 1 jam dan 2 jam hingga jam 4pm - total 24 kali pada hari sabtu dan ahad) tapi yang paling sakit masa masukkan cecair supaya darah tak beku ~ itu amat sakit & ngilu ok!

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im have to off now as now is 2.15am means is 2am already. we continue later!


Gud nite Karlene*wink*


Monday, October 19, 2009

Happy Birthday

::Karlene and Me::

Happy 1st Anniversary to Ms Karlene!

19th October 2009

I glad to have YOU around
I glad YOU always be with me whenever i need YOU
I promise to take care of YOU
I promise to keep YOU clean
I promise to drive YOU carefully!
Sorry because YOU have to listen all d things come out from my mouth (sing,cry,laugh,talk,scream,curse etc)

Thanks Ms Karlene to be with me!

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Life is Great! (pinjam tagline GE)

Hye you guys out there!
How was your day?
Last week a lot of wonderful things happen.
Catch new movie in cinema?
I do watch this 3 movies on last week.
Having Deeparaya celebration in school.
Jom Makan Musical (my next coming show) goes smoothly ~ thanks for the production team, they are AWESOME!




:The 3 Movies ~ makes me laugh,cry & scream::

Here is DeepaRaya Celebration at FISP
The joy we celebrate as one world!












What can i say, Life is Great! (pinjam tagline Great Eastern). We can make our life's great. We are the one who make a choice. Put fears aside and keep our dream Alive ~ ini spirit word yg selalu saya guna bila saya mula ragu nak buat satu benda.

UPDATE
Jom Makan Musical - sudah complete kareografinya, lagu sudah dihafal dengan jaya, team members yg selalu datang latihan lebih awal dari waktu yang sepatutnya,dan mahu pulang lambat serta mahu extra latihan (amat komited mereka ini termasuk saya) producer yang selalu memerhati kami berlatih harap anda senang hati.


Kongsi Gelap Battlefield Game - harap piece ini jadi yang paling HOT untuk innercity kids, dan yang paling IN untuk PESTA HERITAGE HEBOH nanti.(tak sabar mahu tengok hasilnya)


All up there makes my life great!


~encik yang mahu saya panggil hubby juga buat hidup saya hebat, terima kasih ya, sbb sudi teman saya. Encik ini sanggup tunggu saya balik latihan tiap-tiap malam, main gitar serta nyanyikan lagu yang saya suka melalui telefon dan skype.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

BIAR


BIAR

Biar dia dibenam hidup-hidup dalam kenangan tak sudah.
Biar nanti bilanya dia bangkit, ada kuat yang dia bawa.

Biar dia dirantai kunci ketat-ketat dalam rantai mimpi.
Biar nanti bila dia mampu jaga, ada harapan yang dia pikul.

Biar dia diasak-asak dalam sengsara hidup.
Biar nanti bila dia mati, ada cerita yang mampu jadi hikayat.

C.U.K.U.P - CUKUP!!!!

Jangan hulur simpati
Jangan hulur tanganmu
Dia sudah CUKUP jadi manusia

Yang pernah ditidakkan wujudnya
Yang satu masa dulu disampahkan kata-katanya
Yang boleh diinjak-injak pendiriannya

Dia sudah cukup belajar
Hatinya sudah CUKUP lumat

Biar dia, kalaupun dia terbiar
Biar dia mati sepi dari hidup sengsara

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

Pengakuan Jujur

It been so long I didn’t fall sleep like last nite. It’s like a thousand times better than I had curry mee at OLDTOWN (this shop sell the best curry mee in town ~ I vote for them).

Yesterday, after back from school I drop by at Tesco Sg Dua, just because I want to buy Portuguese Egg Tart at King Confectionery (btw I fall in love with this Egg Tart since I’m 11 years old) What can I say is yummy!

After that I head to USM, meeting my client there, nothing much but something precious for me, just happen I close one case (that person apply for investment link, hopefully the transaction is success) ~ amin…

But most part yang paling I tak tahan is the guard who never speak to me (this guard always smile at me whenever he bump into me– what can I do just smiling back la kan…takkan nak sombong plak) but yesterday he so brave and find the way how to have long conversation with me. I’m late for my appointment la pak cik! Luckily another guard saw me and she told me that my client waiting me at meeting room already…fuh! What a relief, at last god sent someone to save me…but then after the appointment the guard still there, in front of main entrance. He smiles. Ni paling tak comel langsung ok. What I’m do just walk as fast as possible and smile at him and say byeee….ni mesti kes aku pakai short dress ari ni sbb tu dia berani nak tegur aku, nak tengok dekat2 la tu..cheh!

After that I head to School of Art, just drop by to meet Janet just wanted to check her schedule, because I have to prepare my master list for ‘Kongsi Gelap BattleFiled Game’ which is going to take part in Pesta Heritage Heboh Event on 5th Dec 2009. Then happen to meet Dr Kipli, he’s busy rehearsing with his student for new show at Gurney Hotel. Just give him an idea, a bit only la..dia lagi banyak idea dari aku, aku ni cuma bleh bagi idea kecil-kecilan je, besar-besaran tunggu aku complete Master and Phd ye…hahaha

Oh ya! Lupa nak citer pasal masa nak balik raya, ok citer ni dah nak basi ok..tp aku ingat sampai ari ni, masa balik raya bln lps, on 18 sept…for sure I did check my car condition, I went to Perodua for service, bukan apa tak nak la Ms karlene sakit mase on the road. I really love her. Then after school I did took time off as well, sebab tak nak get caught on traffic jam. But mase kuar parking keta, I found out my front left tire totally flat. Oh no! What happen? I drove my car to the nearest tire center to fix it. Orang ramai gile kat bengkel masa tu, mesti lambat ni! But I ask the uncle politely to check for me, nasib baik uncle tu x byk songeh and check cepat Karlene aku tu. You know what? Nothing happen! my tire, tak pancit pun. Then why I got flat tire? Wondering me until today…then baru je nak jalan kat keta 3 biji tire jatuh hempap Karlene, oh no!!! aku nangis wei mase tu, sbb bayangkan Karlene kemek…tapi nasib baik takde ape2, just side mirror on my right yg patah. Hurmmm…nasib btul, uncle kedai tire tu terus suruh worker dia panggil org dr kedai aksesori keta dtg fix cepat2 untuk aku. Dalam kul 5 lbh macam tu baru aku gerak keluar dari island, dalam hati memang sangat2 x sedap sebab takut jadi ape2 kat jalan nanti. My mum called many time asking me dah dekat mane?. Tak berani nak citer sbb tak mau dia risau…hehehe, tu je sekian terima kasih.

Ok…continue citer pasal semalam, after meet Dr Kipli, terus balik rumah. Hujan lebat masa tu, and aku pun sangat2 kepenatan. Penat otak sebenarnya. Banyak benda tengah di fikir. Semalam sampai rumah, minum air… cuci muka...ingat nak tidur sekejap sebab letih sangat tapi….pengakuan ikhlas ni, dengan tak mandi, masih dengan dress hitam pink, aku ketiduran, sedar-sedar alarm bunyi kul 6 pagi…aku betul2 tido..seriously,11 hours!!! all the restless thing just disappear in my mind last night. Nasib baik because DUSTA rehearsal is cancel last night also. Kalau tak mase tu orang call or sms I won’t hear at all. My housemate pun hairan sebab tido awal sangat. Selalunya, kalau takde theater rehearsal I will fall sleep around 11pm and above. Maybe letih sangat sbb a few nights ago I fall sleep after 3am only, a lot of stuff struck into my head, and one of it is like thunder came straight, disappear and just leave me with the broken pieces of jigsaw which is I cant solve it until now…


*pengakuan jujur - Mr Fazil Chomel : saya sangat rindukan kamu,banyakkkkkkk sangat!

Saturday, October 03, 2009

Cupcakes+Me = SWEET

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Aku belum agung dalam masa
Masih di sampahkan ditepi jalan bahagia
Masih berteman sepi
Masih juga dilatam rasa
Sudah jauh ditinggal dalam gaung derita
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after raining here the rainbow come
its like fairytale
like fantasy story
hope the Luvvy Fairy with me always

(yang sentiasa percaya pada cinta,
walau cinta yang mahu bagi sudah hilang
yang mahu berbagi kasih sudah luput
hatinya tetap penuh cinta)

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Love, Luv, Luvvy Duvie, Dovvy

Come Right Onto My Door

Knock Knock Knock

May I be Your Valentine?

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Miss Mussy Missy

Smartineer+Bootylicious

Tick Tick Tock

I Beg Your Pardon,

May You Come Closer?

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Good Goodie Goody

We Are Right Combination

You Came On Right Time

Please be with me all the time

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Hold my hand

walk along the road

Close your eyes

Hear me in the dark

I'll be with you forever darl...

This one for sweet october